Tuesday, March 9, 2010

8DPO and some junk

My temp did rise a little this morning, but by only 0.1 degrees, so I'm again worried that I caused this, and yesterday was anything but an implantation dip.  I think I am becoming a little too awake each morning when temping, which in turn makes my heartbeat pick up and my temp rise.  Also, I woke up at around 4am this morning and had a hard time getting back to sleep.  I usually temp around 6am.

Anyway, here's today's chart.  I'm 8DPO:

I'm honestly not feeling very different, or in any way that may lend itself to suggest I may be pregnant.  Yesterday, I was exhausted, and practically falling asleep at my desk, but today, that has pretty much subsided.  I'm a little tired, but no where near how I was yesterday.  I had let myself think maybe it was an early symptom, but now, I don't think that's really the case.

Today at 11:45am, I have another phone back appointment with my RE, Dr. K.  Basically, she just wants to talk about what the next plan of action is if this cycle didn't work.  I know she just wants to stay on top of everything and have all bases covered, but I can't help but feel already dismissed for this past cycle... its pretty much validating what I have been thinking all week, in that there is no way we are lucky enough to be pregnant on our first try with IUI... thats just too simple.

My husband really wants to take the next cycle off, not because he needs a break or because he doesn't want to keep trying, but because if we did try and finally get pregnant, our due date would be around Christmas.  I know this sounds silly, but we live several hours away from all of our family, and always have travel plans for late December to see everyone.  If we are due around Christmas, there is no way we will be able to spend Christmas with our whole family, since we would not be able to travel, and I doubt everyone would come to us (not to mention we just don't have the capacity to house everyone for an extended period of time).  Also, he doesn't like the idea of having Birthdays so close to Christmas.  He thinks its unfair to the child.  I can see his point, but at this time in the game, I really don't care.  I could care less if we miss one holiday travel to see our crazy and exhausting relatives.  We can just plan to go in January or something.  Plus, in the event we have twins or something (since IF treatments increase this chance AND the genes run in my family), we would likely go into labor early anyway and this wouldn't even be an issue.

Anyway, I know I am getting ahead of myself, but I'm not sure what we are gonna do and its driving me crazy.  I just really hope we don't have to worry about this... I hope this cycle is the one and I'm pregnant now.  I don't want to take another break, but I don't know what to tell him to see my point and possibly agree with me.

OK, this turned into a bit of a vent without my meaning it to be.  I'll let everyone know how it goes after my phone back.


  1. Crossing my fingers for you guys!

    And sometimes it can be that 'easy' - so you never know :)

    I think along the lines of your hubby with the Dec birthday. I told my hubby we would 'pause' in that timeframe because I REALLY didn't want a Dec birthday baby. Not only do I think it's a little unfair to the kids but I'm always so busy and stressed during Christmas I'm not sure if I could handle the extra pressure of birthday presents and parties. BUT... alas... had I been trying for a while I'm not sure if I would have continued to feel this way. So I see your point of view as well.

  2. So the temp thing... hmmm... my analyzing my chart is one of the reasons I stopped. I am not suggesting you stop- but it adds unneeded stress sometimes. Just remember after such a dip, it might need time to go back up.

    As for the Christmas thing, what could be a better present than a baby? I thought along the same lines as your hubby- but then during IF treatments- I thought whenever it happens it happens!

  3. I've thought about the Christmas thing. With our next cycle, if we did get pregnant, baby would be due right around Christmas Day. Honestly at this point though, I could care less. Your baby's life will be no worse if their birthday is near Christmas. You could always do a rocking summer 1/2 birthday party every year.

    Plus, remember that you could be due in January and still go into labor early and end up with a Christmas baby!